I'll start with....
the WOE'S:
- Morning sickness and vomiting (though this is a pretty normal symptom, no one in my family had it except me) I literally laid on my couch for 3 months. I barely went out, ate or did my hair/make up. I cringe looking back at the first trimester and my heart goes out to all the women who suffer from morning sickness throughout their entire pregnancy.
- Arthritis flare ups. No, not the normal pregnancy related ones. I was diagnosed with Rheumatoid Arthritis when I was 14 years old and I remember them telling me 70% of women who have RA and get pregnant, their symptoms go into remission for those 9 months. Another expectation set too high because I fell in the 30% where my symptoms are still present. I can't take my injections or any anti-inflammatory pain relievers. It doesn't help that I'm about 50 pounds heavier than I was before pregnancy and hypothyroidism and also my baby is getting bigger which causes more pressure on my joints. But thankfully, I have a sweet husband who massages me every night. I also permanently smell like Icy hot.
- I miss sleeping comfortably and I have to accept the fact that I won't be for the rest of the year. Bye sleep. Miss you already.
- I'll also randomly feel super nauseous if I haven't slept well.
- My hair is so much longer but SO tangly. No matter how many times I brush it, it always ends up as a rat's nest.
- Stretch marks. I saw my first one on my stomach at week 13 and asked my cousin who was 28 weeks at the time if she had any and she said no. So I of course freak out and I'm embarrassed by it. I definitely have a lot more but they are perfectly lined like a tiger. Seriously, they are. Now I'm more proud of them for being so nice to me. Weird, I know.
- My digestive system has been awesome. Constipation is not something I have to worry about. #sorrynotsorry
- Ever since I started my second trimester, I can't tell if I need to pee. Like I don't feel that sense of urgency anymore. I'll feel a little off and then think "maybe I need to pee" and then I feel better.
- I don't like hot cheetos. Anyone who knows me knows that this is a big deal. I hated them my first trimester, I finally got to eating some my second trimester but I don't care for them anymore.
- I cry so much more now. I guess it's pretty common to be hormonal but for me, it's weird. I cried when I watched dumbo for the first time, cried during elf which I've seen a billion times, I cried when the mash potatoes were gone at Thanksgiving dinner. I legit got so pissed at pizza hut for getting our order wrong that I cursed (not my best moment.) I cried when I randomly remembered that I was so mean to my cousin when we were little and one day in Elementary school, she bought me a big stick popsicle because I didn't have any money to buy one. Like seriously?? This is me:
- When we went down to San Diego for Christmas break, we went out to eat Chinese food with my family. As we were heading out, a random waitress (not even the one who served us) just came up to me and rubbed my belly and said "soo cute!" in her little Chinese accent. I thought WOAH LADY...my family doesn't even rub my belly then I thought, hey she's probably buddhist and wanted to rub my belly for good luck.
- I can eat anything and any time I want (including church) without feeling judged. I do this every Sunday and call it "snacks in the back." Thomas loves it too since he eats half my snacks...
- Maternity clothes are like wearing sweats all day. SO COMFY. I don't want to go back to regular clothes...ugggh.
- I can now feel Baby P kick! He kicks the most when I watch Star Wars, eat tamales or bagels. I love that he already has a little personality even inside my belly. I can NEVER get enough of feeling him move.
- I have already been super blessed with my mom and a couple of my friends who love baby P so much that he's been spoiled with lots of clothes! Baby clothes are just THE CUTEST. I can't get enough!!
- I don't have diabetes! I call this a win because I was expecting to have it and not be surprised. But I am so grateful I atleast don't have to deal with that!
- The ULTIMATE perk: using the "I'm pregnant" excuse for basically anything. I even think Thomas uses it more than I do. Free pass for anything. #noshame
I keep dreaming about life with baby P. It's so exciting and a little terrifying for mostly selfish reasons (no sleep, what if he isn't cute??, name choosing is a lot of pressure) but it's been fun to watch him grow.
Can't wait to hold you baby P!!
xoxo